I haven't posted anything for quite some time. I feel "tapped out". My life journal sits in my bedroom with pages full.....but for some reason I just haven't added any words to this blog.
Last evening before I fell asleep I thought about this...... and yesterday as I sat on the balcony soaking up the early morning sun I thought about this...... and here again I think about this.
I'm thinking about my friends who are going through some very rough times.
My co-workers who struggle to find themselves.
Those family members who struggle to find a sense of peace or those who set out to conquer success- what success is it that they look for?
Those who try to find a place where they belong.
Football Superstar tells me what they need....what's important.....what matters.
of course I know this. My husband who was not tapped on the shoulder by God but was tackled to the ground as only God could do with a strong ex-football player.
But how do you watch and wait? I'm not a very patient person at times....especially when I feel there are important matters to be dealt with.
The "see-saw approach" to life must be hard. The "waiting the storm out" can not be healthy.
This is why I feel tapped. Yet, I don't want to just stand in the rain waiting with those who are in the storm. I can handle some rain, I have cute wellies to wear.... but I'm not so sure standing in the center of thunder and lightening is something I feel comfortable doing.
Last sip of coffee....I'm heading to the balcony. I think I just answered my own question.
Sometimes it takes the perfect storm to be healed. keeping my wellies by the door.
Thank you Father!